Passenger.

I sometimes feel as if i'm in a movie. its almost like an out of body thing. but it isnt really, i just envision things in a different light, i guess. i'm not necessarily the lead role:

music's got to be playing in the background, or she doesnt feel it. she's the girl always trying to find relevancy. she's the silly one, but no one knows it until she's out of her shell. wishing she was the one up there onstage, doing what she wants to do. never quite finding the right words to say for fear of being overbearing, or too vulnerable. too breakable. making sorry attempts at figuring out this whatever. trying to find something she's good at because its never as if she's good enough. she's not totally lost. but she always keeps trying. she can be put down a thousand times. turned down, told 'never', and she's determined. or maybe she's just stupid. or is it loyalty? her best friend could tell her, "nah, i can't," at every given opportunity and she'd still keep at it. i guess its pathetic.
she prides herself on being really confident, and really assertive.
or maybe she's just insecure and too argumentative for her own good.

i dont know.
she might need some character development.