sick of this.

i am so fucking sick of this envy. this hatred. this bitter grudge i hold against any relatively bright and happy individual who happens to be in love. this loneliness is seriously starting to get to me.
what i need is some therapy. some self-induced therapy. you know, like shopping. or getting off my ass and getting myself a camera so that i can finally delve into photography. its something i really want to do. itll help me get away from it all.
this is pathetic. so pathetic. but what can i do?